Shifty Eyes!

I love this little boy. His eye on the right is always a little more closed than the other. for that reason when he smiles or growls or grimaces, he has a sideways mischevious look to him. and it matches his actions perfectly. He is such a boy

i used to think(before having a boy and girl) that boys were boys because their dad's were more rough with them, and more gentle with girls. TOTALLY not the case. He has been more boy than abby since birth. he is just a tough little kid who bumps his head and falls and hurts himself without a peep. but at the same time, if he get emotionally hurt...... be careful cuz he gets UPSET!

a part of me is sick of traveling. i don't like it. but i love this changing of client every few months. the change of scenery is awesome.

but without fail, almost every night, i have to see some toddler about the size of abby or alma, or i have to hear a baby laugh or cry or whine, and it reminds me of these two and it makes my heart ACHE. i hate it. in that moment i would do anything to pick them off the ground and hold them.

what's funny is i think my kids don't need that comforting as much. i think they are just tough kids. i think they have to be, just because of what is ahead, with the signs of these times. even at these young ages, their character seems so much more prepared and talented enough to withstand everything that will be thrown at them.

i feel like human teaching a rabbit how to jump. like the second i teach them something, they will surpass my abilities almost immidiately. what's funny... it doesn't bring me a feeling of sadness, it just makes me so proud and relieved at how amazing these two are. they are so incredible, happy, and full of the spirit. I have to work my hardest not to screw em up.